this is my sabbath...

The company I work for is based out of Naples, FL. My boss came to me a few weeks ago and asked me to pick a week to come down to visit with everyone. There was no real purpose in my visit, but just to come. I was pretty much opposed to the idea, even though I knew I had to come anyways. He was kind enough to make sure I left after the weekend ended and returned before it started. So here I am.

My hotel room could be mistaken for my second apartment. It came complete with 2 televisions, washer and dryer, full stocked kitchen, dining room, living room, king size bed, and a patio overlooking the olymipic sized pool. The ocean is less than a mile away, though I have not walked to the beach. I should. Maybe tomorrow I will take 30 mins to go sit.

Last night I was determined to not be a home body, but to venture out and try something new. I was to conquer one of my fears - eating alone. I've never done it before - at least not in a restaurant. I made my way to Books-A-Million and found a book to burry my face in, in hopes that I would look less loser-ish. How awkward to say "just one" when the hostess asks how many, even worse when the waiter checks on you every 5 seconds. I felt the need to announce I was there on business to some how raise any thoughts he had towards me, but I think he still felt bad for me and my book. I left him a nice tip. I can't say I would like to do this on a regular basis. However, I think it was good for me. I haven't done something uncomfortable in a while. I like being out of my comfort zone in some ways. I used to do it every weekend while I was touring around doing music. I've forgotten how it was to feel awkward for more than 5 minutes.

Even though I was dreading this trip away from everyone, it's been good to rest. I've been on an internet fast for about a week now. You are probably wondering how I am typing this or working, but my fast only included myspace, facebook and aim. I was wasting so much time online, winding my heart around drama that probably didn't even really exist. But giving this all a break has been good. I feel good. I feel peace. I feel hopeful. I am excited to see what this weekend will bring with out new practice time and group, and worship on Sunday night.