mercy

There were a few extra bounces to my steps yesterday - for most of the day. The sun was shining brightly in the sky as brightly as my heart felt. It's kinda sad how fast things change and cloud our thoughts. I'm wondering why I am consistently reminded of what my heart longs for... but is it truly what I should long for? I went to bed confused and just tossed and turned all night and anxiously awoke to the morning. I wish that my heart was truly nested in the hands of the One who created it. I know it is, but I keep trying to take it back. Somehow I feel shaky and weak and alone. I find it odd what I keep telling myself and the emotions that fight back. It's like one annoying broken record.

There is this song that fits my heart right now:

Tonight the stars speak of your infinite love. And it serves to remind me that what I have means nothing at all compared to your glory, oh Lord. How long ‘till your voice speaks clearly? How long ‘till your arms envelope me? I cry – be my strength when I am weak. Oh Lord, have mercy on me please. My spirit is willing but my flesh is so weak. I cry in your arms now. God, grant me the strength to rest in you. I lift my hands and cry.

Right now I truly need God to grant me the strength to rest in Him. To put His arms around me and remind me I'm not alone, that He holds ALL the answers, and in Him I am complete. I pray that my prayers are not in vane. I want to hear the voice of God and for Him to be the light to this path I'm on. I know that He is here... maybe I'm just afraid since I can't see past the moment I am in.

It's good to be reminded what mercy means:

something that gives evidence of divine favor

We are so unworthy of mercy, but I somehow need alot of it right now. I am in need of divine favor for my weary heart. Speak clearly to me today, Lord... I beg this of You.