From glory to glory

I wish I could go and fall asleep in the sun in the grass somewhere... where no bugs would crawl on me or person or animal would harm me. Not happening in this city. I feel like I need to connect with God somehow, somewhere... I dont know how or where. I just want to lay in His presence and somehow the sun seems like a good way to somehow feel Him near me. It's that or I crawl under a big giant rock and hide out for the next ten years and some how avoid all the feelings in my heart. I dunno where God is taking me or what He is doing in me. I wonder if I've just been fighting it for a while and haven't realized it. Is there about to a break thru? I really hope so. There is no resolution to this entry. I just need God so much right now... where do I find Him?