Busy or Lazy?

So I have not updated this blog in over a week. I'm not sure if its from the craziness of December/holidays of being busy or just being lazy or just trying to not think. One of my best friends and I were talking about life and she made some obnoxious comment and I proceeded to correct her. She insisted on standing her ground with her statement. She said sometimes you have to think one way in order to keep your heart from wondering off on it's own path. Though I still think she is lying to herself, it is somewhat of a good concept. We have to take captive our thoughts. I'm still at this crossroads. Oddly enough, I'm not tired of sitting here yet. I feel as though the action of sitting - which required way more work initially - has actually strengthened me and my heart is at peace. I will continue to wait upon Him and be diligent in all that He asks of me til He moves my heart.

The other day I was having a discussion with a very dear friend and he said something to me about this situation that maybe it wasn't from God since it was a big focus. Honestly, I believe God allows situations to occur in order for us to be shaped so that we are able to do what He has for us. The awesomeness of all of this is that God has ultimately been the focus. It has always come back to Him. Him drawing my heart to His. Him giving a push to get my attention. Him guiding me to this place in order to use me. He has been preparing me for something amazing. I do not believe this time has been in vain. He has united my heart with similar hearts that have been there to listen, encourage, pray... through this process I have drawn close to His Spirit. I hope that I never stray from this place again.

And so I will wait upon the Lord.