The Importance of Obedience

I think we all wonder why certain things happen in our lives. We struggle and question God. Our understanding just can't comprehend it. I've been battling that for some months now with everything I went through last year. I knew that God would show me what good would come from it or what the purpose was... just wasn't sure when He was going to do that.

I had been seeking God about something important in my life this past week. I felt as though His words were on repeat from the latter part of last year "rest". This put fear in my heart. I was convinced I was just making up stuff at this point and I was unable to hear His voice.

I went bed that night unable to sleep partially from being sick and just having so much on my mind. I began to pray. I knew God knew about this new fear... even before I figured it out. I heard Him say it again "rest". I said to myself "GOODNESS stop already!". I just laid there thinking why on earth do I keep hearing this word. And it hit me like a flood. This word of "rest" was not my mind playing tricks. It was not a made up story. It was God... speaking... to me. Our lives are one part prayer, one part listening, one part doing. I got the praying thing down, I got the listening thing down, I do not have the "doing" thing down.

If anyone knows me, I am a person who sees much. I see alot of the downsides of things and want to fix them. Most of the time I'm pretty good at doing so. I just have a solution minded brain. So you can only imagine when I'm told to sit still - it doesn't go over too well. So in all my efforts to make things "better" in my life last year - I made things worse because I was in direct disobedience from God. I let my fear of losing something be greater than my desire to obey God - kinda like the story of Jonah and the whale. Thankfully I was not dumped into the ocean and swallowed by a whale. I hate fish.

I feel so much peace at this time. I am confident in my God; my Father. He knows the greater picture. He has the best in store for me. Every good and perfect things comes from Him. He is my Rock; my Fortress. In Him, I put my trust.